A wish.

Sometimes I wish so hard it feels like my entire being will absolutely turn inside out. Like I would become a rubbery blob covered in organs and veins, held in by a network of bones and the whole thing would be surrounded by this electric blue aura which is how I picture all our nerve impulses and thoughts and really our very beings... maybe our souls.

Today I wished, like I do sometimes, that I, and everyone else, could have one chance to stop time. One opportunity to say "PAUSE!" and everything on earth would freeze. And I would walk out the door and explore the entire world. I'd ride bikes, walk, sail... rest when I got tired, eat when I got hungry. I'd swim in carnivore infested waters and walk through jungles without fear. Can you imagine how quiet it would be? The only sound would be the wind or rain, the trickle of creeks, roar of oceans, rustling palm fronds- I could experience everything without anyone bothering me. No one saying "hurry up".. no one saying "you can't come in here", no expense. And when I felt lonely enough, and like I had seen enough, I would proclaim "RESUME!" and all would.